السبت، 13 سبتمبر، 2014

New Life Lessons

Recently, I decided to break the ego I have to ask.
.I learned that it's foolishness to pretend that you're smarter than what you are
Pretending that you're stronger than what you're is fatal most of the time.
 But could save your life if the others are pretending as well.  
  You have the ability to scratch all the negative words others tell you.
 You'll end up with an ability .that's much greater, putting people on mute mode for a while.
Never get angry because of a "person". And if you did, don't ever show it to him
Because you'll hate your self after that.

When I read these lyrics for the first time, I smiled. If I was a song writer, these could be my words!

"Cultivate your hunger before you idealize."
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve, 
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to look so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears, 
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

You say, "Dreams are dreams."
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
(Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.

You still are blind, if you see a winding road, 
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears, 
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.
 "'Cause you will hate yourself in the end. 

Ending Song from the TV show, Naruto

الثلاثاء، 17 ديسمبر، 2013

Look and think

People think the signs of God exciting is the supernatural things that occurred, a kid born with a birth marks showing Allah's name ...etc. 
While the signs are more relative to your life, you see it every day. 
Look to the order in the natural look how the birds fly! how the night follow the day, how the plants grow in the desert, how you breath with out thinking, how your muscles move, study biology and see how complicated the simple function in your body. 
Just look and think... every time you look deeper you'll see it's impossible to not exciting of one great god. Just open your mind and look !
Some people claim that believing in science means that you don't believe in God! But that not true! Science did not proof any thing against god exciting. Some Religious people refuse the big bang theory,  the evolution the fact that earth is rounded shape. they think it''s against believing in god just to test their believe. That's not true! all these theories are science exposed to be denied by other theories. and even though it's correct, who put this amazing order? who came with it. yah! you can tell that some explosion occurred in a lab and the explosion form a pharmacy by its self, I would believe this sentence but I'll never believe the last part, by its self. 
This is not retro speaking.. If it was, why there are hundreds of commands in Qura'an that order peoples to think and learn? Never stop learning, never stop thinking. God bless us with minds to think with.

الاثنين، 25 نوفمبر، 2013

عندما لا نضع مقاييس للسعادة


الحياة بسيطة .. الحياة أسهل من عقدنا

ماذا لو لم أقم بتحقيق أي من أهدافي؟ ماذا لو لم أستطع ان أفعل ما وعدت نفسي بعمله؟

لماذا أشغل نفسي بالخوف من المستقبل والندم على الماضي؟

لماذا أشغل نفسي بالريبة والترقب؟

لا شيء يستحق الترقب في هذه الحياة!

نعم هناك أشخاص يستحقون التقدير ويستحقون المحبة التي نعطيها ..

لكن لا أحد يستحق ذاك الترقب.. لا ! سأصيغ الجملة بطريقة أفضل.. ليس من العدل كل تلك التوقعات التي نلقيها على كاهل الآخرين تلك التوقعات التي نتطلع الى ان يكونوا لها…

الحياة أبسط من تلك التعقيدات ,, أبسط من تلك التقديرات والتوقعات والترقبات…

استيقظ من النوم ولا أتوقع شيئاً ,, ولا أترقب حصول شيء … أجعل الحياة تفاجئني بروعتها…

عندما لا نضع مقاييس للجمال والسعادة … كل شيء سيبدو جميلاً سهلاً…

السبت، 22 يونيو، 2013


Full of choices, My life is.
Even if it sounds great! this has side effect
Regret the worse feeling I had ever felt.
And I’ve been feeling it over and over, every day ,every hour, with every single decision
I reach a point in my path, wherever way I go ,, I’ll regret my decision.
It’s hard..
  When you’re prospected to be perfect
When you want to do what make you happy and you even don’t know what can make you happy
When you have lack of confident and you are fully responsible about what will happened
Yesterday, I missed my old planned life where I’m walking on clear easy path.
I plead to God to make all that stop !
I’m thankful !! but all these regrets still running behind me. thinking and thinking and feel bad and sorry..
Weeks ago,  I stopped looking for how  others are thinking about me or my decisions..
Thanks God
But I’m still punishing my self  why I’m not like that? that’s seems good!
!!!Today I realize, Yes it’s seems good, but not on me..
I realized, Regret hold you back always , Regret will follow me wherever I go, So it’s better to ignore it.
This night, I gazed the sky,  I saw my hometown sky! for the first time since I came to this new land ! …
This night breeze, this light clouds where the Full Moon hide behind it … and even the sand smell.. I’m far away to be in a desert, ,, but I feel it  .. It’s sign ,, I’m going back to me again
I’m seeing the Moon and I imagine it as a letter .. nothing changes , nothing to regret… I still under the same sky watching the same Moon

السبت، 18 مايو، 2013

Mountain & Desert Peasants

Mountain & Desert Peasants  


My parents are from different regions of the Arabian continent and they all lived in agricultural land. The similarities and differences between my maternal and paternal families are interesting. The family members in both families were work in the fields, lived in the same house even after getting married, eat together, and split the profit from the agricultural work between each other.
My paternal family inhabits one of the few civil towns in the desert, in Buraydah, working on date palm orchards, and wheat and barley fields. Most of the family members worked together in their agriculture duties. But many men –like my grandfather- preferred to be merchant between countries such as Iraq, Syria, Jordan, Palestine, and Egypt and spend their lives traveling between these countries trading everything, such as: Cattle, Clothes, Sugar, tea, perfumes, and more. Also seeking for knowledge was common. Some men and women spent their whole life learning and teaching language and religion.
In the fertile highlands of Hebron, like my paternal family, my maternal family was peasants also. They lived in a small village, farming a wide range of many kinds of food, olives, citrus, pomegranates, and grapes. Cultivation of this large number of crops gave no chance for the men and women to pursue other interests. It was a cultural duty to work with their families. In contrast to my paternal family, there was no opportunity for any independent life apart from the obligation to family farming.
Although both my maternal and paternal families now live a modern globalized life style, there are some noticeable differences in the family structure and the limit of intervention which are reflected in the way that their parents and grandfathers were living. My maternal family has inherited the close familial dependence between the siblings. Even though they have different jobs in different areas, they still discuss their personal and work dissensions together while my paternal family doesn't pay that much of attention to each other's personal and work life.
Women role in both families was almost the same. Women were having a major important role in the family. The domestic duty was above their shoulders and they gave a big help in the fields especially in the reaping seasons. After marriage women will move to their husbands' houses and they'll help their husbands' families in their work. However the women will still have the right to inherit from their families' money and lands even though they'd stopped working with them after marriage. And this is similar in both my paternal and maternal families and that because most of these rules is according to the Islamic legislation especially the inheritance system which saves the women rights.
Beside believes and religion, I think that the predecessors behaviors and culture still has its effect on the way people live now, despite the fact we now almost live the same lifestyle.